reBIRTH

I'm here again
That familiar space
Loneliness
It feels like home
No one to understand
Because the need for
Companionship is strong

Sorrow follows this time
The everchanging need
For me
Isn't the obvious
So I prolong
That feeling so strong
And obvious

32 years still strong
But a explorat
By choice
Not convenience
I'm confused at the needs of others
The feeling so familiar
Of being with "one" another

Traditions are grandiose
& elaborate thoughts
Of past times
Not quite our familiar times
So thoughts are never wanted
But ever so telling.

I sit here...and think.
Time has a way of letting you know
How relevant things are
Even after the climax
The moment I felt so vulnerable
To the point of holding on to a moment
or a situation
instead of realizing and letting go
Now, just thinking
and reminiscing
Feels real different then holding on
But knowing and acknowledging
Yeah, that's it...it's done.
The thoughts of he
are just that, thoughts
I still and will always love him
For what he was
And that bring tears
Yes, I move on and love harder
And not take for granted anything
Not even the way things are in society
And how we must manage together
I'm aware of my faults now
I'm me...and I want someone who cherishes
Just that...me.
Secrets aren't secrets
Just ways of communication
I'll show you the road map
You must follow the points
And understand the code.
That means, vulnerability is your key
Patience is your compass
And time is your map.
I sit and wait.